Difficulties (learning to snorkel)

April 1, 2014

I have many good things around me. The weather is turning milder. Spring is on the way. I have several good friends I see from time to time. 2014 has brought me a pleasant and sweet wife. My dog has a crude haircut. Things are good.

On the other hand I am having a lot of issues. A lot of spider webs inside of my mind. I am having troubles navigating through to the light. Lately it is a struggle to get through the day. Among other things, I have developed anger issues.

Five weeks ago I was in Puerto Rico and I had the chance to snorkel. I thought I knew how but I realized I did not. Maria is a great swimmer and gave me some tips. For me it was difficult until I realized that I need to completely relax. I needed to completely fill and empty my lungs with deep extended breathes. Full lungs of air kept me afloat like a balloon and above the treacherous urchins (fear). When I learned this I could suddenly fly and soar through the water. It was then easy and enjoyable. We swam on the northwest coast of Puerto Rico over countless fish. We saw a whale in the same water an hour later. It was one of the best times of my life.

Perhaps my current pain and struggles could be resolved in a similar way. Perhaps I need a meditative exchange of mental breathe to keep me afloat over the urchins I encounter from day to day. Easier said than done but I can learn. I would like to try. I want to float above the petty troubles of yesterday. I want to snorkel to tomorrow.

During the last few weeks I have been painting a book cover as well as illustrations through out. Maria did the complete book design. I can’t wait until the first printing is ready. It has been great working together. More soon on this project.

I will work as Spring brings nice weather. I will be thankful for those around me that help me. I will breathe a little more–a little deeper. I will take time to be glad and thoughful. I will watch nature be reborn. I will breathe.

– kyle